Seeking Help with Finding That Core "Love for Allah" in My Actions
Assalamu alaykum, everyone. I've been Muslim für about a year এবং a half now. My family wasn't religious, just so you have that background. I've been struggling with something এবং wanted to see if anyone else has felt this way. Whenever I read about other believers who say their main reason for doing anything is "out of love for Allah," I find it amazing কিন্তু I don't really feel it myself. For instance, when I pray because the Quran tells us to pray five times a day. I dress modestly (I don't wear hijab yet ইন্শাআল্লাহ) because it's prescribed এবং out of respect for my husband. I try to do good deeds because Allah commands it এবং I genuinely want to help people, but that initial thought of "I'm doing this purely for the love of Allah" just doesn't pop up für me. Please don't get me wrong – I fully believe in Allah এবং in Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), এবং in divine decree. I fast in Ramadan too, but my reasoning is always "It's written in the Quran." Has anyone else experienced this? Am I missing something বা does this feeling come with more time? Is there anything I can do to help shift my mindset? I already feel a bit anxious about putting this out there, so please be kind. জাযাকুম আল্লাহ খাইরান for any advice.