Young Muslim seeking guidance

Assalam Alaikum, I’m a young man studying in France, originally from an Arab country. Childhood was hard - my father was very strict though he cared, and my mother struggled with mental health when I was little. She was barely in her 20s when I was born and my father is much older than her. Growing up I often felt alone and had dark thoughts. I won’t go into every detail, but there was a long, difficult period. For about five years I cried a lot by myself and didn’t share it with anyone. My maternal grandmother was a strong support, but I only saw her a few times a year. Everyone knew my parents were serious, especially my mother. My grandmother used to plead with her to be gentler with me, but she couldn’t. Now, with hindsight and maturity, I understand more about her anger and depression. We never really talked about these things with my parents, yet it stayed with me. As a child and teenager I was often isolated and struggled to make friends. Around 18–19 I met new people and began trusting some because I craved connection. I made many mistakes then - drinking, parties, travelling, trying anything to feel better and move on. It didn’t fix anything; I stayed depressed. Lately I’ve returned to my faith in Allah and have seen signs guiding me back. I’ve spent months and years thinking through everything, and now I finally feel ready to change. I understand my parents more and feel we’re slowly reaching a better place. This feels like a new chapter, but I haven’t really spoken to anyone about it yet. I had plans with certain friends, but reflecting on it I see we don’t share the same values, even if they mean well. I’m asking for advice on how to move forward from here. How should I rebuild my social circle and life in a way that aligns with my faith and values while staying true to myself? JazakAllah khair for any thoughts.