Struggling with faith and self-acceptance as a Muslim

Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh. Ramadan Mubarak to you all. I'm reaching out today because I've been wrestling with some deep internal conflicts about my identity and faith. The truth is, I experience same-gender attraction, and my personality and way of expressing myself are gentle and emotional in a way some might describe as feminine. Sometimes I even present in a more feminine style. I've shared images of this side of myself with close friends online, mostly because I'm searching for acceptance and to feel like I'm 'enough.' I didn't choose these feelings; they've been a part of me for as long as I can recall. I am aware of the Islamic guidelines regarding this, and I'm not here to question what's halal or haram. I understand the general scholarly view. What's more painful is this overwhelming sense of being 'abnormal.' There are days I wish my attractions were straight, imagining how much simpler things would be-socially, in my deen, and with my family. Yet, I can't ignore that my capacity for deep emotion and care feels very real and true. In my daily life, I avoid haram actions like drinking or smoking. I strive to be compassionate; for instance, I often help friends financially without pressing them for quick repayment, telling them to return it when they can. I try to be patient and a source of support. I know I'm not perfect and have my faults, but my intention is to be a good, upright person. More than fearing punishment, I carry a sadness and a weight of internal struggle that feels isolating, like a burden many around me can't fully grasp. My deepest wish is to live as a faithful Muslim without feeling perpetually broken or at war with myself. Has anyone else faced similar challenges? How have you found peace between your iman and parts of yourself you didn't choose? Jazakum Allahu khairan.