This Year Has Really Weighed on Me
As-salamu alaykum, everyone. I'm reaching out here hoping for some Islamic insight. Lately, I've been feeling so hollow, and it's like this whole year has just been one struggle after another. I keep telling myself that Allah has written my path and everything works out for good, but honestly, I can't seem to find any relief. Not a single moment this year have I felt at ease. I feel isolated, forgotten, and my iman feels shaky. Sometimes I catch myself thinking that maybe I have bad fortune, and I know deep down that's not right to think, but I'm only human, and I guess these thoughts just come. I've been praying, reading the Qur'an, making heartfelt supplications, doing dhikr, yet my heart stays heavy and I still feel directionless. I don't feel like anyone around me is really there for me emotionally in a way that brings me calm. I'm just not sure what to do anymore. Basically, life has just been so burdening this whole year, and I'm at a loss.