Struggling with my health, please dua
Asalamu alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatu. I’m from Europe and reverted to Islam two years ago, Alhamdulillah - I’m so grateful Allah guided me. I’ve been suffering from a severe chronic illness for about four years after a Covid infection. I went from being healthy to mostly homebound, and some days I’m bedridden. I struggle with brain fog, exhaustion, dizziness, insomnia, palpitations, irregular heartbeat, muscle weakness, joint and widespread pain, and ongoing chronic pain. Because of this, performing my acts of worship is really hard and, as a revert, there are moments I even question myself and feel shaken in my faith. On top of being isolated by illness, I have family problems. My mother asked me to leave her home two years ago - both because of my sickness and my conversion - and I haven’t seen her since. I’m living with my father but he doesn’t believe I’m ill; he often gaslights me, tells me to get a job, and threatens to throw me out even though I’m barely able to pray and take care of myself. A kind man from Japan helps me a little financially since I can’t work, and without him I’d be in serious trouble - he’s truly a blessing from Allah, Alhamdulillah. Still, the whole situation sometimes feels overwhelming, though I try to remember that Allah does not burden a soul beyond what it can bear. Some days it’s very hard. Please keep me in your duas. InshaAllah I’ll find a way out of this hardship. JazakAllah khair.