Struggling to Return to Regular Prayer - Need Advice, Assalamu Alaikum
Assalamu Alaikum. I’m having a hard time getting back into a steady routine of salah. Over the past few years I’ve gone from praying a few times a day to sometimes missing prayers for days or even weeks. When I follow scholars or motivational Islamic accounts I get fired up and manage to pray all five for a while, but if I miss one I feel awful for a bit and then gradually become numb again. The last period I was consistent, I felt uplifted and I honestly thought I’d never stop praying. I even encouraged others to be more regular, and now I feel like a hypocrite since I’m not keeping up myself. I do want to return to praying regularly. When I was praying I felt peace, even if I didn’t immediately feel deeply connected to Allah - I know that connection can take time, especially since I haven’t been consistent for long. Sometimes I feel like Shaytan is pulling me back, and other times I wonder if I just lack willpower. I’m questioning myself as a Muslim and asking whether I’m a Muslim in name only. I live in the West and recently moved to a new state, so I don’t have any Muslim brothers or sisters nearby yet. I’d really appreciate hearing from anyone who’s gone through the same struggle and what helped you get back on track. Jazakum Allahu khayran for any tips or dua.