Sometimes I feel so distant from Allah, even though I know He's always watching.

Assalamu alaikum. I know Allah is Al-Baseer, the All-Seeing. But honestly, I feel like my prayers and efforts to get closer to Him are just hitting a wall. I'm fully aware of my own sins and I keep falling into them, even when I feel like I can't physically stop myself right now. Every worry I pour out to Him seems to make things harder in the long run, like it's somehow being turned back on me. I know this dunya is temporary and a test, but subhanAllah, it feels so heavy sometimes that I just want to disappear and not have to face it anymore.