Seeking Practical Guidance and Honest Support, Assalamu Alaikum
Assalamu alaikum brothers and sisters, I need real, practical advice. For about four years my life has been really hard every single day. I’ve been dealing with illness, extreme poverty, and the fallout of war. My whole family is displaced and I’ve watched many people around me die over the past two years - people from my community and close to me. I’m Sudanese and there’s war in my country. I’ve tried to be a good Muslim my whole life and I pray five times a day. I’ve feared Allah and tried to hold on, but in the last two years my faith has been slipping because I’ve been thinking a lot and talking to Muslims at the mosque, and I just haven’t gotten anything that helps me in a practical way. For the past two years I keep struggling with the problem of evil. I keep making sacrifices for Allah, praying and making dua, yet life keeps getting worse year after year (especially these last five). How do people cope with growing resentment toward Allah? I’m really starting to feel it. People tell me, “Allah doesn’t burden a soul beyond what it can bear,” but phrases like that don’t help anymore - they feel like a quick comfort or a cop-out rather than an answer. That frustrates me even more. If Allah is merciful and has a plan, why am I suffering so much? What’s the purpose of all this suffering? Why does Allah allow it? These questions keep me awake at night and make me seriously consider leaving the religion. I’m asking for honest, down-to-earth advice from fellow Muslims who’ve faced deep hardship: how did you manage anger or doubt toward Allah? Are there practical steps, spiritual practices, or community resources that helped you cope day to day? What helped you keep going when life felt unbearable? Jazakum Allah khair for any sincere responses.