Seeking Guidance on a Big Change - Please Pray for Me
As-salamu alaykum, I’m worried I might be drawn to Islam for the wrong reasons… A little background: I was raised Catholic and grew up around almost no Muslims. I met a woman I like who is Muslim, and that led me to look into the faith. Things started to click for me - the idea of the Trinity never sat right, and reading about Jesus’ words and how Islam presents his true status felt like it corrected a lot of the things I’d struggled with as a Christian. When I call on Allah I get a real sense of peace and relief, like my worries lift. But I’m afraid my interest is too tied to this relationship. I even asked Allah to remove the woman from my life if that was what He wanted, and suddenly she stopped talking to me. Still, my learning didn’t stop - I keep reading hadith and Quran stories. I worry I might lose interest later and go back to being agnostic. The idea of formally reverting scares me - I don’t know how my family and friends will react where I live, and I’d hate for it to look like I became Muslim just for her, even though I won’t pretend that wasn’t part of it. At the same time, I can’t really stay a Christian: the notion of Jesus as God feels wrong to me now. I hope Allah allows Jesus to return in my lifetime so his role is clear. If Jesus were truly God, would he be upset with me for praying to the same Lord he prayed to? That thought makes me pause. I think I want to embrace Islam, but where I live Muslims are often viewed negatively, and that’s a practical barrier. My Catholic identity has made daily life easier in this majority-Catholic country. Does any brother or sister have practical or spiritual advice? I feel really torn, but my heart leans toward Islam. Please make dua for me - I’d be very grateful.