Seeking Guidance as a Young Muslim

Assalam Alaikom, I’m a young man studying in France, originally from an Arab country. My childhood was rough - my father was very strict though he cared for me, and my mother struggled with mental health when I was young. She was barely in her 20s when I was born, and my father is much older than her. Growing up I often felt alone and had dark thoughts. Without going into every detail, I went through a really hard period. For about five years I cried a lot by myself and didn’t share it with anyone. My maternal grandmother supported me a lot, but I only saw her a few times a year. Everyone knew my parents were serious, especially my mother. My grandmother tried to talk to her and encourage more kindness, but she couldn’t change. Now that I’m older I understand more about my mother’s anger and depression. We never really talked openly about these things with my parents, but it was always on my mind. In my youth I was often alone and found it difficult to make friends. When I was 18–19 I started meeting new people and trusted some because I needed connection. Looking back, I made mistakes then - alcohol, parties, travel, and so on. I was just trying to be happy, to move on, to enjoy life. But those things didn’t fix the emptiness. I stayed depressed. Recently I’ve returned to my faith, alhamdulillah, and I see signs from Allah guiding me. I’ve spent months and years reflecting and processing, and now I feel more ready. I understand my mother and father better and I’ve been able to turn the page. I feel they want healing too, and we’re slowly getting closer to each other. This feels like a new chapter, but I haven’t told anyone about it yet. I had plans with some friends, but I’ve realized we don’t share the same values, even if some of them are good people at heart. I’d really appreciate advice on how to move forward from here. How should I proceed - reconnecting with family, finding better friendships, strengthening my iman, seeking professional help, or something else? Jazakum Allah khair for any thoughts.