Salaam - Feeling Stuck in My 30s
As-salaamu alaykum. Right now I'm making just a few dollars above minimum wage. I have a 3-year college diploma in business but I'm really bad at business stuff and I'm low on conscientiousness. I spent around 5–7 years trying to find steady work, with school mixed in and a few short-term jobs along the way. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Are some people just meant to work jobs they hate forever? I look to my family and community for guidance and no one seems to have answers. I've been searching for years and nobody seems to know what to do. What even is the point of all this? Why keep going? It feels like I'm on a relentless hamster wheel of dead-end jobs, unstable work, low pay and constant struggle. Is this my life now? I'm in my mid-30s and feel like a total failure. I struggle with abandonment issues, few friends, no close relationships, and no spouse. My ageing parents depend on me, which adds pressure. It all feels pointless sometimes. Is life only about surviving? I don't know. Is this adulthood? Has anyone ever managed to break out of this misery? Sorry for the rant, I'm just exhausted. My new job has long hours delivering packages, packing trucks, etc. It's okay work but I'm completely fried. I can barely cover my rent and bills. I guess this is the so-called North American dream. May Allah grant patience and better opportunities to anyone in a similar situation.