Please Make Dua for Me, Brothers and Sisters

Assalamualaikum, please make dua for me. I’d been saving every single dirham since I was a child - all my Eid money, working from 14, keeping everything back with the hope that by 28/30 I’d have enough for marriage, a home, and a family. I never travelled, never spent on myself, lived very simply and put off enjoyment. Astaghfirullah, at 26 I got involved with gambling. I won a little at first, then I lost the winnings and tried to chase it to get my savings back. I kept losing. For a year I lost, lost, lost - about 300k. Then my car broke down the next week. Now I have no job, no money, no car - every dollar I saved is gone. My life has felt like hell for the last year and a half. I’ve lost hope. I pray for relief every day. I’ve become a better Muslim in many ways: I pray five times a day, I’ve memorized parts of the Quran, I do dhikr and dua regularly. But the loss is always in my head and it won’t leave - it’s torturing me. My family doesn’t know what happened. I cry every night and live in despair. I love Allah SWT; if He took everything to bring me back to prayer then Alhamdulillah, but honestly I haven’t smiled or felt relief this whole year and even now I’m typing this with a broken heart. I feel it’s impossible to get my savings back - marriage, kids, the future I planned feel out of reach. I keep praying because Allah deserves my prayers, but I’ve lost hope for my life. I sometimes wish I would die a shaheed. Brothers and sisters, wallahi, stay away from gambling. The “win” today is often the loss of tomorrow. My only goal was to recover money I worked hard for and it destroyed everything. Please read my story, reflect, and make dua for me. Ask Allah to forgive me and, inshaAllah, restore my life. I really need your duas. Jazakum Allahu khairan.