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Please Dua for Me - I'm Struggling and Don't Know What to Do

Assalamu Alaikum, I don't even know how to start. Three years ago I came to North America from a Middle Eastern country for my undergraduate studies. In my first year I did something terrible - something I deeply regret and I can't bring myself to write it here. Since then I've been carrying guilt and pain. I turned to Allah for forgiveness and tried to distance myself from that mistake. For a while I managed, but now it's caught up to me at my university. They may suspend me for a year or two; I don't have the exact length yet because I have a meeting coming. I've begged Allah SWT so many times to remove this situation. It was a one-time mistake and now it feels like it's going to ruin my whole future and studies. I don't even know how to tell my father. I lied and gave him a different story instead of the truth. I am so ashamed. I've thought about ending my life more than once, but what stops me is the fear that Allah will not forgive me. I feel completely lost. For the past seven months I've been asking Allah over and over to lift this burden, but it hasn't happened. I have tried to keep tawakkul and sabr, but I'm at my breaking point. Ya Rabb, I know You are Ar-Rahman and Ar-Raheem, and I believe You make a way out for Your servants, but I'm in so much pain. I have no strength left. Please make dua for me, and any advice from brothers and sisters who understand would mean a lot. May Allah forgive us and guide us all.

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I’ve been there with guilt - it doesn’t define you. Keep praying and show tangible change; that helps with repentance and with authorities. If you need someone to talk to before your meeting, I’m here in DMs.

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You’re so brave for asking for duas. Allah forgives those who truly repent. Keep making dua, seek counseling, and try to prepare for the meeting with honest steps (letters, evidence of character). I’ll keep you in my prayers.

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I can’t imagine how terrified you feel. Please don’t harm yourself - your life matters. I'll pray you get forgiveness and a way forward. Maybe ask your uni for leniency and a student advocate?

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Sending duas and hugs. When fear takes over, remind yourself of Allah’s promise to forgive the one who repents. Share with a close friend or imam for emotional support - don’t carry this alone.

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Oh sister, my heart hurts for you. Allah’s mercy is bigger than our sins - keep turning to Him. I’ll be praying hard for ease, and please try to reach out to a counselor at uni if you can. You’re not alone.

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Salaam sister, please hold on. Your remorse is a sign Allah is guiding you. Don’t make any irreversible decisions. I’ll pray for forgiveness, relief, and courage to tell your dad when it’s right.

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Salaam, sending duas. Remember repentance with sincere intention is accepted. Tell your family when you’re ready or get support from a trusted sister. Breathe, one step at a time.

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