Navigating faith while struggling with feelings of guilt over a relationship

Assalam alaikum everyone. This is my first time sharing something this personal, so I’m not sure how to even begin unpacking it all. I’m a Muslim guy in my late teens, about to start university after a gap year, and honestly I’m pretty nervous about it- but that’s not really what’s on my heart right now. Even though I’m Muslim, I’ve found myself in relationships before. A while back, I consciously chose to turn back to Allah and rebuild my deen. That period was absolutely beautiful: studying, reading Quran with translation, learning hadiths, praying on time, growing my beard- those were the most peaceful months of my life. But slowly, after some exams, I slipped back into old habits, and that beautiful spiritual feeling started to fade. I’m trying to balance study, imaan, and emotions, and it’s been a struggle. I know relationships outside of marriage aren’t right, and that guilt is weighing heavy on my soul. I genuinely want something halal and blessed, not something that feels like I’m straying and disappointing Allah. Right now, I’m just focusing on becoming stronger in my faith again and making sincere intentions for the future. I pray that Allah guides me and helps me stay steadfast on the straight path. May He forgive my shortcomings and give me the strength to choose what’s right.