I could use some reassurance, assalamu alaikum
Assalamu alaikum. Hi everyone. Every now and then I see posts about needing motivation and I try to offer a kind word when I can - it’s free and sometimes it helps. Today I’m the one asking for a little encouragement. I’ve been a freelance writer and editor full time since February 2015. Mostly it’s gone well, but there have been rough months. Lately, for the first time in almost 11 years, a client told me they’ll be cutting my workload because they built an in-house AI tool. To be clear, I’m not against AI. In fact, the last few years of my career were possible because I learned to edit AI-generated work. Agencies hired me to put human polish on it, and that’s how I survived. I truly believe AI can be a useful tool, but it can’t replace human creativity or whatever it is that makes our work soulful. Still, getting that message from a client I’ve worked with for 1.5 years hit me with a real sense of dread I haven’t felt in a long time. I’m 36, I’ve made some good moves with investments and insurance and managed to travel a bit, but I’m not close to retirement. I worry about sustaining this career and the freedom it gives me - the life that led me to meet my future spouse, someone I want to marry, provide for, and grow old with. This isn’t the first time I lost a good client (once I was let go because I was too expensive), but it’s the first time a tool I learned to use is now threatening my livelihood. The irony stings. Money isn’t an immediate problem - I’m covered for maybe two years unless something medical happens. I know some will say find “real” work, but I live in a developing country and local pay can’t match the USD rates that have supported my family. I’m the breadwinner for my retired parents. I still have work and I’m reconnecting with former clients and applying for gigs. It’s not like I have zero income, but the lack of steady, reliable earnings has been a stressor for the last year. It’s heavier now because I finally have someone who’s become my reason to keep going - and I want to protect their smile. If you’ve gone through a similar dip - losing steady work because of automation or changing tech, then finding your footing again - please tell me it’s going to be okay. I believe I’ll come out of this, that it’s a phase many go through, but for now I need a calming voice, even just for today. Jazakum Allah khair for reading.