How can I learn about Islam the right way without harming my well-being?

Assalamu alaikum, Trigger warning: mental illness and islamophobia I've been around online circles for a while and I see so many people who know a lot about Islam, which is inspiring. Lately I've been trying to reconnect with my deen, but it's been on and off. Last year I dove into a lot of heavy and controversial topics without any clear plan - things like the Prophet's marriages, issues of war, and pretty much every sensitive topic you can imagine. I even went through a long seerah series that felt impossible at first. The problem was that all that digging actually made my mental health much worse, and my iman suffered even though I was consuming Islamic content every day. Reading apologetics and deep dives didn't really help me sort out the difficult questions in my head or heart. Maybe I was doing it as a subconscious reaction to the intense islamophobia where I live (even from friends). Or maybe I was trying to find meaning and reclaim a part of my identity that I used to just take for granted. I eventually crashed toward the end of last year to a pretty bad degree - I won't go into details, but it was the lowest I've felt. Since then I've been stepping back and working on my health (therapy, etc.). For my worship, I'm focusing on the basics: consistent salah, learning foundational theology, and thinking about fasting if my health permits. Right now I'm listening to a series on descriptions of Jannah to keep things simple. So I wanted to ask: how do you study Islam while staying mentally well and keeping up your practice? Do you take notes, watch lectures, read books, journal? How do you set a pace that doesn't overwhelm you? Any tips on structuring learning or coping with difficult topics would be really helpful. Would love to hear your experiences and advice. Jazakum Allah khair.