Hoping for a pious spouse

Assalamu alaikum, I just need to get this off my chest. I really want to get married, but I’m trying to avoid the haram way of dating or having a girlfriend first. Does Allah reward someone for staying patient and seeking a righteous spouse? It’s hard because finding a sister with the same mindset feels impossible, and honestly, it’s been so lonely. On top of that, I know I’m a sinful person-sometimes I think, who am I to even want something so pure when I’m drowning in my own mistakes? My parents and the people around me don’t get it. They keep pushing me toward the haram route because that’s all they know, and I’m tired of explaining myself. I’ve just stopped caring about their opinions. I want to do this the right way, but it’s like I’m fighting this battle alone.