Feeling Lost in My Faith Journey

Assalamu alaikum, folks. I'm just gonna get straight to it because my mind is all over the place and I need to share this. I've been Muslim my whole life, but lately, I've been wrestling with my beliefs. I've found myself drifting towards agnosticism, not because I want to, but due to a mix of confusing contradictions and some really tough personal experiences. My heart still feels attached to Islam-it's like there's an emotional pull-but my mind struggles to accept everything, maybe because of all the misinformation and confusion we see today, or even some disappointing actions from people who claim to represent our faith. I know many might just dismiss me, but I'm not looking for anyone to 'fix' me. I just need clarity: am I truly questioning my beliefs, or am I just being influenced by everything happening around me?