Feeling Lost in Finding the Right Way
As-salamu alaykum everyone, I’ve been trying to figure out which understanding of Islam is correct and I’m honestly stuck. I’ve read about different hadiths and some seem possibly fabricated while others seem genuine - I can’t tell. I’ve studied the Sunni and Shia positions and their arguments don’t fully convince me. Quranism looks sensible in some ways but has big gaps for practical things like how to pray and other rituals, so that doesn’t solve everything for me. I know some of you might try to persuade me toward Sunni or Salafi views, but I’ve examined those too and even the supposedly authentic Sunni hadith collections raise questions for me. I’m not rejecting them out of spite, I’m just coming at them from a logical standpoint. It feels like there are new rules every day and the groups disagree with each other so much that I don’t know which path to follow. There are so many different schools and opinions. I’ve even started accepting the possibility that I could end up in Jahannam. I’m trying to cope by thinking that many people are in the same uncertain position. Even if I stick to the five pillars and try to avoid major sins, it still feels like my chances of reaching Jannah aren’t high - maybe because of a small thing I missed, like not following a certain practice exactly or disagreeing with some group about a historical figure. Anyway, I’d like to hear from you: what do you believe? Have any of you come to terms with the possibility of Jahannam, and how do you live with that uncertainty?