Feeling Lost About Rizq - Need Advice, Assalamu Alaikum
Assalamu alaikum, this is a sincere cry for help and I’m not sure where else to turn. I feel like I have no rizq. For five years I’ve been working day and night and have only earned 30k AED total, which barely covered basics like food, water, rent. I’m also under huge debt and don’t even know where to begin fixing it because I can’t secure my own basic needs. I’m not asking for money here, I just don’t know what to do anymore. It’s just me and my sister - we were orphaned young. Tensions are high but it’s mostly the strain of our situation rather than family fights. I have no job prospects right now. I’m trying to build something to pull us out, but progress is very slow and I know these things take time. I work mainly in IT and I’ve reached out to friends and contacts for any kind of job, but after five years of asking I’m exhausted. I’ve prayed to Allah many times for a livelihood and nothing seems to change. I’m at a loss. For reference, I pray and give what zakat or charity I can when possible. I’m trying to keep my faith and ask forgiveness when I slip. I’m not perfect, but I don’t commit major sins. My mother (may Allah grant her Jannah) worked so hard to give us a future, and after she passed my father and his family took what they could and left us struggling. I won’t dwell on him, but he wasn’t kind. What practical steps should I take next? How can I increase my chances of finding halal work or stabilizing our situation? Any dua, practical tips for job searching in IT, managing debt as someone without savings, or community resources to approach would be really appreciated. JazakAllah khair.