Feeling Like a Failure - Need Guidance, Assalamu Alaikum

Assalamu Alaikum. My cofounder and I decided to start a business while keeping our day jobs. After a month I was laid off, and he said, “Don’t worry, I can cover your food,” and we picked up freelance gigs to pay rent for the next two months. In the first week he pushed me to buy a monitor to be more productive, so I spent my last savings on it. A week later my MacBook M2 Pro screen died and I couldn’t afford the repair because I had no money left. For those two months we finished our product using only the monitor I had bought. But during that time I started feeling like he saw me as a failure. I’d worked at a web agency for very little pay; he referred me to another company that also let me go, and then I came back working with him. To him, it seemed I was always failing. The truth is we think alike and I’ve had wins - I grew a YouTube channel from 300 to 80k subscribers in three months, and at that agency I was handling six microservices, a mobile app, and a web app on my own. Those skills are things he once admired in me. Still, I began feeling like a burden. His body language and expressions made it clear he thought so, and words can be deceptive but the way someone carries themselves often reveals the truth. I didn’t tell him I was searching, but I found options. I have an offer to move to another city as a founding engineer, and I also have a chance to work as a contractor for three months while I keep building my SaaS and try to earn revenue. The founding engineer position pays about twice what the contract job offers. I’m torn about which path to take. On one hand, the higher salary and stability of the founding engineer role would help me and my family. On the other, the contract option would let me keep working on my own product and potentially grow it while getting some income. I’d appreciate dua and advice from anyone who’s been through something similar - how did you weigh immediate financial security against the chance to keep building your own idea? JazakAllah khair.