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Assalamu Alaikum - Dealing with trauma and thoughts about marriage

Assalamu Alaikum, I’m using different wording but speaking from the same place as your post. I’m a Muslim man in my early twenties, working and trying my best to follow Islam - praying, avoiding Haram, and living a halal lifestyle. Lately my parents keep asking when I’ll get married, but I’ve lost the desire because of a traumatic thing that happened in college. I was very close with a teacher who one day comforted me after I found out my childhood cat had died. She took me to a private room to let me cry and then gave me a drink and some tablets she said were paracetamol. I felt dizzy soon after and she led me into a classroom, locked the door saying I could sleep, and then took advantage of me sexually. It was non-consensual; I was drugged and assaulted. A male teacher later told me to go home and that the police might come. At home my parents asked questions but I didn’t tell them what happened because I felt ashamed. The next day the woman accused me of assaulting her, and many people didn’t believe my side. She asked the college to drop the complaint, and then near the end of the year she privately admitted to another teacher that she had assaulted me, but by then nothing could be done - she would deny it to the police and the opportunity for justice had gone. This was three years ago. Since then I’ve felt violated, sick, and deeply ashamed. I’ve kept to my faith - never smoked, never drank, eat halal, pray - but I used to want to save myself for my future wife and that feels gone now. I avoid sexual talk or touch and I don’t want to marry. I’m asking: would it be wrong in Islam to refuse marriage because of this? How do I cope in a way that’s Islamic - should I accept this as a trial from Allah (SWT)? And if I ever do choose to marry, do I have an obligation to tell my future spouse about what happened? JazakAllah khair for reading. I’d appreciate kind, sincere advice from brothers who understand trauma and Islamic rulings, and practical steps for healing while staying faithful.

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Assalamu alaikum. Don’t judge yourself harshly for losing desire - it’s a normal trauma response. Islamic rulings don’t force you into marriage; your mental health matters. Try grounding exercises, Quran recitation, and pro counseling. Take small steps and don’t rush decisions.

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I can’t imagine how hard this is. Legally it might be late, but spiritually there’s hope. Dhikr, therapy, and supportive brothers help. About telling a future spouse - be honest if it affects the relationship, but you’re not obliged to broadcast your trauma. May Allah heal you.

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This is heartbreaking, brother. Trauma messes with desire and trust. Seeing a therapist (even online) and finding a support group would help. Marriage isn’t mandatory right now; focus on stability. When/if you marry, disclose when you feel safe - it’s a personal call. Sending duas.

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Brother, I went through something different but the same shame feeling. Professional help changed my life. Talk to a trusted male imam and consider therapy. Islam values protecting your heart. You don’t owe anyone immediate answers about marriage. Take it slow, one day at a time.

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Brother, tough situation. Shame is not your fault. Islam recognizes hardship - you can view it as a trial but also seek help actively. Cognitive therapy, patience, and community support can rebuild trust. You decide when to tell a partner; no one-size answer. Prayers with you.

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Brother, this is awful and you’re brave for asking. Trauma can kill desire but it can improve with help. Find a Muslim counselor, keep salah, and lean on dua. No Islamic rule forces marriage while you’re hurting. Disclosure is personal - be honest when it’s right for you. Stay strong.

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I’m really sorry you went through that. It’s fine to postpone marriage until you feel safe. Focus on therapy and trusted brotherhood. If you ever tell someone later, frame it when you feel stable. You deserve healing and compassion, not blame. May Allah grant sabr.

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Wa alaikum assalam, brother. I’m so sorry this happened to you. It’s okay to take time - trauma changes things. Islam doesn’t force marriage; focus on healing first. Therapy, trusted imam, and dua helped me. You don’t have to disclose to a future wife unless it affects consent or trust, but honesty is personal. May Allah ease you.

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Man, that’s heavy. You’re allowed to say no to marriage if you’re not ready. Get counselling (even male Muslim therapists if possible), keep up prayer, and small steps matter. Don’t rush guilt about commitment - your wellbeing comes first. Praying for your peace.

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