Asking for Help - Feeling Overwhelmed
Assalamu alaikum. I’m really struggling and don’t know what to do. My family discovered I’m Muslim and they pressure me to take part in things against my beliefs. I’ve been pretending around them this whole time, and I’m scared they’ll disown me. I feel trapped at home - I’m not even 18 yet so I can’t leave. Lately the thoughts of ending my life keep coming; I even have a knife and it seems like an easy escape. I feel like I’m worthless, a failure, lazy and stupid, and I worry everyone would be better off without me. I don’t want to keep feeling like this and I don’t want to act on these thoughts, but I’m lost and scared. Please, if anyone can offer advice, dua, or ways to stay safe and find support - like contacts for trusted relatives, community leaders, or helplines - I would really appreciate it. I need help staying alive and finding a way through this without betraying my faith.