As-salamu alaykum - I want to revert but I'm scared, please help
As-salamu alaykum, For the past month I've been seriously thinking about reverting to Islam. Since my teens I've felt drawn to the faith, but only recently did I feel a clear connection to Allah. I used to have that stereotypical view because of a few extremists, but Alhamdulillah I'm realising Islam is a personal relationship with Allah, and the sins of some don't change what the faith means for me. I've never felt that kind of connection to any other symbol or form of God in other religions - but I do feel it with Allah. Islam fits how I see the world: true equality, the simplicity of praying in the masjid, modest dressing, and the whole idea of humility - it really speaks to me. I read Surah al-Baqarah all the way through and it moved me. The Qur'an feels like guidance that steers people away from harms, not just alcohol and pork but broader poisons. The halal way of treating animals strikes me as respectful. Avoiding riba also makes sense - I've seen greedy behaviour from people around me who aren’t religious, and some “friends” have even tricked me for money. It hurt a lot. The idea of zakat is beautiful too; I always try to help someone in need, even if it’s just buying a snack for a homeless person. It pains me when I see people shooing someone away who needs help. I hate judging people for looks, height, or clothes. I’ve never enjoyed mocking anyone, yet I was teased for dressing simply and for being short. Islam teaches us not to do that, and honestly I prefer simple clothing - I tried changing myself to fit in before and it felt fake. I’ve done things I’m not proud of, but I believe Allah forgives and that coming onto the right path would only make my life better, Insha'Allah. What’s holding me back is fear of taking the shahada. I’m scared of what friends will think, and that some family members might see me differently. I’m talking to a sister right now and she told me her parents wouldn’t approve of her marrying a Muslim - that kind of reaction scares me because I don’t have a big circle of supportive people. Can someone please encourage me to take the shahada? I truly feel this is the path for me and I need something, a nudge or advice, to help me take that step. May Allah guide us all.