As-salamu alaykum - I think I might embrace Islam

As-salamu alaykum. So I’ve gone through some big changes and a lot of pain, and those experiences made me, as a Christian, question the idea that God is eternally loving in the way Christian trinitarian theology describes - a perfectly united community of love. That view started to feel inconsistent with the wider Abrahamic picture and with the reality I’ve seen. It began to seem like God doesn’t love people unconditionally as a parent loves children; rather, we are loved in relation to our role as servants. Suffering is everywhere in this life, and much of it doesn’t appear to be the kind that brings people closer to God or guarantees reward - some who suffer still end up rightly judged. If a loving parent wouldn’t allow their child to choose self-destructive paths when they can prevent it, how does that fit with the idea of an all-loving God allowing people to choose eternal harm? That led me to think God’s love is limited in some ways, which didn’t line up with the trinitarian concept of love as an eternal attribute. At first that felt bleak, like everything points to a dark, uncaring universe. But then I started learning more about Islamic ideas and came to see Allah as the real, concrete good we are given, far removed from any comparison with Satan. I vaguely recall a hadith or teaching about human weakness and purpose - that our capacity to err is part of the wisdom of our creation, preventing arrogance before our Creator and giving space for sincere humility. If we respond to the qualities Allah has bestowed on us with submission and humility, then He accepts and loves that we sought to please Him. I’m still processing a lot, but I wanted to share this shift in thinking. Salam.