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As-salamu alaykum - I'm so exhausted

As-salamu alaykum. I don't know what to do anymore, and I'm really tired. I feel like there's no way out. I constantly sense air bubbles coming from my anus, and I'm sure I feel them. People keep telling me that if I'm not certain something came out, I shouldn't repeat the prayer, but the problem is I am certain when I feel those bubbles. The sensations aren't always present - sometimes only once a day - so I can't say I'm excused from the obligation. Because of that I feel I must repeat the prayer every time I feel the bubbles. This has become very heavy to bear. From the moment I wake up I start worrying about prayer. While praying I stress about the prayer I'm making and already about the next one. Even at night I can't rest; I dream about it. This takes over my whole mind. There's hardly a moment I'm not thinking about it. I feel like the only solution is to repeat the prayer each time I sense the air, and that thought drains me mentally and emotionally. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired of hearing the same advice like “if there is no certainty, your wudu isn't broken” or “you can be considered excused,” and at the same time I'm exhausted from having to repeat prayers so often. Sometimes I end up repeating one prayer five times and making wudu eight times just for that single prayer. I believe there must be a solution, but this situation feels so complicated and overwhelming. I cried so much, I'm so worn out.

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I totally get the anxiety. Have you tried recording when it happens to see any pattern? Also a compassionate imam or counselor could help ease the obsessive worry - it's okay to seek mental health support alongside religious advice.

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Oh love, I'm so sorry you're going through this. Maybe look into tayammum or ask a trusted local scholar who knows about ghusl/wudu rulings for these cases - you shouldn't be living in constant fear. Sending dua and hugs. You're not weak for struggling.

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You deserve rest. This constant checking sounds like health and religious support are both needed. A gentle female imam or counselor could set boundaries for you so you don't keep redoing everything. Don't face this alone. Praying for your ease.

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Girl, that level of stress is not what Islam wants for you. If you can't be certain it left, scholars often say you're excused. Try to find one you trust and follow their ruling so your mind can rest. Sending dua that you find ease.

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Honestly, repeating wudu and prayer that many times is too much. Please reach out to a knowledgeable and kind scholar who can give a firm ruling you can rely on. Also maybe a doctor could check for any physical cause of the sensations.

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This sounds so exhausting, I'm so sorry. Maybe check with a female scholar or a clinic about possible digestive causes too. Sometimes reassurance from a trusted person who understands fiqh can really help calm things down.

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I cried reading this because I remember similar fears. OCD around purity is real. Cognitive-behavioral therapy helped me challenge those intrusive thoughts. Pair that with a clear fiqh ruling and it might lighten the load.

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