A sincere plea - Assalamualaikum
Assalamualaikum everyone, I'm a 24-year-old Muslim Indian man. This might not speak to everyone, but right now I feel utterly defeated, lost, and even betrayed - not only by people but at times I feel distant from Allah (swt). I'm not blaming Allah (swt). I know I have committed countless sins, some knowingly, many unknowingly. The hardest part is I still struggle to control myself, and with each passing moment I feel I drift closer to Jahannam and farther from Allah (swt). I've lost interest in salah, in life, in earning a living - everything feels empty. I don't see rizq, happiness, hope, or guidance coming my way. I fear I've lost out not just in this life but in the Akhirah. I sincerely want to return to Allah (swt) and try to follow the sunnah of Prophet Muhammad (saw). He did so much for us; I worry I have let him down. To everyone reading: please stop falling into sins, turn back to Allah (swt). He is Most Kind, Most Merciful, and Most Loving. Astaghfirullah - I'm sorry, Allah (swt). I'm sorry Prophet Muhammad (saw). I'm sorry to my family and to the Ummah. Please support one another, help those in need, and strive to follow the sunnah of the Prophet (saw). Also, please remember the Palestinians in your duas and efforts. Jazakum Allahu khairan for reading.