Why Eid feels so lonely for me, and how I cope as a revert

Salaam, I just wanted to share something heavy. Every Eid, I end up alone, honestly. I'm a revert, and my neurodivergence makes going to the big Eid prayer really tough-crowds and all that just overwhelm me. It's supposed to be this joyful time, but for me it's the loneliest day. I sit at home just wishing I had a family or some fellow Muslims to share it with. I try to remind myself it's still a blessed day, but it's hard. Anyone else go through this or have tips? JazakAllah khair for reading.