Struggling with Qurbani Feelings?

Salam, a few days ago I shared how tough it is for me to handle the animal sacrifice during Eid. Only a couple of people responded, and it didn’t really help. I feel awful. I know we do this for Allah, but ya Allah, it hurts so much. I’m crying and don’t know what to feel. Tomorrow is Eid here and I’m lost on how to get through it. I haven’t even gotten close to the goat we have, but just thinking about it makes me so attached. Is it really necessary for us to sacrifice him? Isn’t there another way? Please, can someone help me out?