When the weight gets too heavy to bear alone...

Salam everyone. I'm writing this as someone who tries their best, prays, and repents to Allah, but lately the sadness has come back so strong. I know ending one's life is haram and against everything we believe, and the thought of that consequence terrifies me, but the feeling of being unimportant and unwanted is overwhelming. I usually keep this deep hurt to myself because I don’t want to burden anyone with it, and I don't have many close friends to turn to. I'm striving to stay away from past wrongs, but I feel so distant, even though I know in my heart that Allah is closer than my own pulse. It’s a confusing and painful place to be. We're only human, and sometimes our hearts grow very fragile. Please make dua for me and for anyone else feeling this way.