Quit My Job and Now I’m So Scared to Spend

I ended up leaving my job recently because the way they treated me was just awful-it was eating away at my dignity. For the first time ever, I made dua and said, “Ya Allah, provide for me the way You provide for the birds.” I put my full trust in Allah and walked away. Now I’m without a job and no money coming in. I didn’t expect to be this terrified of spending from my savings, especially when it will barely cover me for a couple of months. I keep giving sadaqah to help me cope with that fear-may Allah accept it. But honestly, this fear comes from a deep worry inside: I don’t know where my next income will appear. So all I see is what I have, and it’s slowly shrinking. May Allah forgive my weakness. Allah is the Provider, Ar-Razzaq, yet my anxiety overtakes me. Astaghfirullah, naudhubillah. I’m scared of being broke, and really it’s the fear of humiliation. Not having money feels so humiliating. I hate depending on others at all. May Allah make us among those who give, not those who just receive.