I want to believe in Islam, but I can't seem to find faith inside me

Assalamu alaikum. I'm barely holding myself together mentally and lately my doubts have pushed me into deep despair. The thought that there might be nothing after death-no justice, no judgment, no consequences-terrifies me. I can't accept other religions logically, and Islam feels the closest to what makes sense, yet there are things pulling me away and I don't know how to make sense of it all. My biggest struggle is with the unseen. I keep telling myself I believe, but deep down I feel like I'm lying to myself. I can't picture heaven or hell in a way that convinces me. On top of that, I don't feel an inner reason or conviction to believe. It's not that I'm picking beliefs for convenience; I just don't find convincing proofs in my life. I'm not particularly book-smart, and I can't just accept something because someone told me to. I also have trust issues with people, which is my own problem and I won't get into it here. I'd like to read the Qur'an properly, but I barely have time. From the moment I'm awake until I collapse I'm working, and I can't even manage ten minutes a day to sit and read. I'm terrified of going to hell and equally scared of there being nothing after death. I know believing just out of fear, like Pascal's wager, isn't ideal Islamically, but that's been the only thing keeping me clinging on. Knowing that's a weak basis makes me feel even more lost. I apologize for the long rant. I'm trying to stall myself from doing something drastic and hoping maybe someone will offer gentle advice or point me toward small, practical steps to reconnect with faith.