Neman Zaman Lafiya da Ƙarfi akan Hanya Mai Wuyar Gaske

Assalamu alaikum. Tsawon shekara goma sha biyar yanzu, rayuwa ta kasance gwaji mai nauyi, kewayon wahala wanda ya fara da rasuwar baba na da nake so sosai. Mahaifiyata ta sha fama da lafiyar tunaninta tun daga lokacin; kowace shekara tana fuskantar wani lokaci mai wuyar gaske inda ba ita kanta ba, tana zama mai damuwa, mai dogaro, kuma rashin lafiya a ruhu ko da jikinta yana da lafiya. Daukar wannan nauyi tun ina ƙarami ya bar zuciyata da tunanina gaba daya gaji. Iyalinmu sun jimre da wasu lokuta gaske masu duhu, kuma yawancin zafin mu, abin takaici, ya samo asali daga ayyukan ƴar uwar mahaifiyata. Ba na so in yi maganganun sharri, amma halayenta sun haifar da raunuka masu zurfi, sun rarrabu da mu da danginmu, kuma tana ci gaba da kawo matsala cikin rayuwarmu yayin da take kiyaye siffar ta ibada. Muna daɗe muna kaɗai-babu al'umma mai ƙarfi a kewaye da mu, babu dattawa don mu nema don shawara, kuma yawancin dangantakar iyali an yanke. Na gama karatuna shekara guda da ta wuce, amma ina jin na ja da baya, fanko, kuma na ƙare gaba daya. Ina ƙoƙari in ci gaba da salloli na, karatun Alƙur'ani, neman gafara ta Istighfar, da kuma yin sabo, amma wasu kwanaki nauyin duk yana da yawa sosai. Akwai lokuta ina kwaɗayin mahaifina sosai, ina jin cewa ba mu da kowa da zai kare mu ko ya tallake mu. Abin da ya fi zafi shi ne ganin yadda wasu mutane ke cutar da wasu ba tare da wani tsoron Allah ba. Yaya za su sami hutawa cikin sauki bayan suka haifar da irin wannan zafi? Ni gaske ba za ku iya fahimtar hakan ba. Ba na ba da wannan don jin tausayi. Ina gajiya kawai, ina jin rashin bege da mamaye. Idan da wasu ɗan'uwana ko 'yan'uwana a cikin imani sun fuskanci irin wannan gwaji, ta yaya kuka sami hanyar ci gaba? Shin akwai takamaiman addu'o'i, ayoyin Alƙur'ani, ko kalmomin shawara waɗanda suka kawo muku ta'aziyya da ƙarfi na gaske a lokacin shekarunku masu wuyar gaske? Ta yaya zan iya inganta wannan yanayin?