You’re not lazy, you’re clinging to who you used to be - assalamu alaikum

Assalamu alaikum - It’s easy to say you want to change while living a life that’s just bearable enough that you never actually do. You dislike your job, but it covers the bills. You have plans, but distractions win. You’re not content, yet you aren’t in such pain that you make a move. So you stay put. One more month. One more year. One more excuse. You’ve arranged your life around certain habits, certain fears, certain stories. Even if they cause you unhappiness, they’re familiar. You know how to be the person who always says “I’ll start tomorrow.” You know how to live with that nagging guilt. You’ve accepted it. In a strange way, it feels like home. So when a real chance appears, you undermine it. Not because you don’t care, but because deep down, a part of you remains loyal to the life you promised yourself you’d leave. Many would rather keep being unhappy than face becoming someone they don’t recognize. No one likes to admit that. It’s simpler to say you’re tired, stressed, or unmotivated. But maybe it’s time to stop waiting for motivation and instead grieve the person you won’t be once you step forward. That letting-go is part of change. Until you’re ready to accept that cost, you’ll keep calling it procrastination. But it isn’t procrastination. It’s fear of becoming someone new. May Allah grant us the strength to move toward what’s good and to let go of what holds us back.