Worn Out from a Lifelong Illness and Learning Struggles

Assalamu alaikum. I've had this sickness since I was little. Back then, it wasn't as hard to deal with, but over the years it just kept getting worse. Now at 24, it really weighs on me every day. There's no real cure for what I have. Ever since childhood, I've made so many duas, gone to countless doctors and hospitals, and tried everything under the sun. When I was younger, it didn't mess with my head as much, but of course I always wished to be well. After turning 18, things got a lot tougher. My condition got noticeably worse, and that’s when I lost my self-confidence. I became mentally drained. At that age you're expected to start shaping your future, thinking about studies, work, chasing goals. I attempted to go back to school, but my health made everything harder until I finally had to drop out. Then I tried looking for apprenticeships and jobs, even though my illness makes day-to-day life a struggle. I searched for a long time, worked briefly for someone, but the employer tried to cheat me on pay, so I left. Since then I've been stuck again, not knowing which way to turn. As a Muslim, I’ve always tried to hold on to hope. We hear that Allah either grants what you ask for or something even better later. I’ve been making dua for years-for shifa, for relief, for a good future. Tahajjud, dhikr, sabr… but nothing seems to change. From 18 until now, these past 6 years, nothing has improved. Not my health, not my money situation, not my self-esteem. I look at others and see them becoming better versions of themselves. They study, start businesses, get married, build families, reach their goals. Then I look at myself and think: 'You can’t even live properly. You can’t even take care of yourself.' I always dreamed of having my own family one day. Since I was a kid, I wanted to get married and raise children. I wanted to build a future like everyone else. But now life feels like one long struggle with no end. Nothing goes the way I hoped. Sometimes I honestly wish my life would just end so I could finally rest. I’m mentally exhausted. Worn out. No motivation left, no goals, only problems. I just wanted to get this off my chest. If anyone has any advice or has been through something like this, I’d really appreciate hearing it.