When Faith Feels Distant: A Personal Struggle

Assalamu alaikum. I'm in a tough spot and feeling ashamed, like it's my own fault. For the past three months, school and work have been overwhelmingly busy and difficult, and I've sunk into a constant state of what I can only describe as 'misery.' Sometimes it feels like depression, but I also believe it's because my iman has really dropped since February. Even during Ramadan, I struggled-I think that's when it was hardest, with family issues and everything. I hoped to regain some iman in the last ten nights by focusing on salah and dua, but I don't know, things just feel off and hard to explain. Lately, I don't think about Islam as much as I should, though I still pray my five daily prayers, but without much khusoo. I feel this 'depression' is tied to my low iman, and I really want to boost it. It's strange because for so long, even if my iman wasn't high, I always had some taqwah with me during the day, often thought about Islam, and linked events to tawakkul. I just needed to share this and hope for some advice on how to move forward. Jazakum Allahu khairan.