How I Finally Believed I Could Change, SubhanAllah
As-salamu alaykum. I used to read stories about people turning their lives around and honestly…I never felt it applied to me. It always seemed like they had some special confidence I lacked. I wanted to change, I really did, but deep down I didn’t believe I could. Every time I tried, a voice would say: "Yeah right…you never stick with anything. Why would this time be different? You’ll end up scrolling and wasting the day, don’t get your hopes up." So I’d give up before I even began. What shifted for me wasn’t a big motivational speech or some productivity trick, it was something smaller and quieter. I stopped asking, "Can I change my whole life?" and started asking, "Can I just show up once today?" I stopped setting unrealistic demands on myself - not forever, not perfectly, just once. One short walk, one page read, one sincere effort. And strangely, after a few days of that, something changed. I didn’t suddenly become confident, but I felt less hopeless. That was new. That small belief - maybe I’m not beyond repair, maybe Allah can guide me - changed everything. I’m still figuring things out, and I still have bad days. But I don’t despise myself for trying anymore. And that alone feels like progress. Does anyone else find believing they can change harder than actually doing the work?