Growing up Christian, feeling pulled toward Islam - need advice
As-salamu alaykum. I grew up Christian and always believed in God and Jesus as the Messiah and the Son of God. I’ve been curious about big questions my whole life - religion, physics, philosophy - and for the past six months I’ve been questioning Christianity a lot. I’d say I’m leaning toward Deism/agnosticism but I’ve never stopped believing in God. Lately I’ve been feeling drawn to Islam. I’d glanced at it before, but recently more Islamic content has started appearing on my feed and watching it brings me a sense of peace. I downloaded a Qur’an app and a dua/dhikr app and have started reading. The phrase “Allah guides whom He wills” keeps coming up for me, and it feels meaningful. I want to learn more and explore Islam seriously, but I’m unsure how to proceed because my wife and her family are devout Christians. My wife is steady in her faith and I don’t think she’d consider converting. Right now, doing things like waking for Fajr and going to the mosque in the mornings isn’t really possible. My wife still expects me to attend church with her and to lead our home according to Christian values. I’m torn about how to balance my search and respect for my family. Any practical advice, encouragement, or stories from people who’ve faced something similar would mean a lot. JazakAllahu khayr for any guidance.