Feeling Lost and Struggling to Find My Way Through

Hey everyone, I'm not the best with English, so please bear with me. About seven years ago, I was blessed to accept Islam and started practicing properly around 2019, alhamdulillah. But right now, I’m feeling really lost-like I’m caught in a storm with no clear path. Back when I was deepening my understanding of the deen, I was so overwhelmed, plus my family's financial situation meant I couldn’t afford to go to college after school. Now, here I am with no job, no stable work, and unfortunately, still no higher education, feeling lost on all fronts. Ramadan in 2026 was especially tough, and it’s something I can’t forget. I love my father, mother, and brother so much, but since embracing Islam and living by it, I’ve struggled and feel almost homeless, unsure where to turn. I’ve lost a lot of hope and find it hard to trust that anyone can truly help. Everyone I’ve loved has ended up hurting me in some way. What weighs heaviest on my heart is my family's fate in the hereafter. SubhanAllah, what good is Jannah if my parents and beloved brother might be in the Fire? How do I find peace knowing that? I wish I had someone by my side, a righteous wife who shares this journey-perhaps a sister who also reverted to Islam, so we could support each other in faith and life. I’ve always lived with self-restraint and never sought haram relationships, but honestly, I long for a spouse now. Yet, the reality is it's not easy to find someone like that, especially in a world where money seems to rule everything. I’ve hit rock bottom, to the point where I catch myself questioning why I was even born. I used to wonder why people consider taking their own lives, thinking it was a terrible choice, but now, in this deep despair, I’m starting to understand that pain. May Allah SWT guide and strengthen us all. Please remember me in your duas.