Feeling Distant from Allah’s Mercy

As-salamu alaykum. In this fleeting dunya, I’ve often felt isolated and pushed aside. When I pour out my fears and worries to Allah, it’s like I’m not being heard. I know du’a isn’t like rubbing a magic lamp, but I’ve tried so hard to be patient. I keep praying and coming back to Him even after drifting away out of sheer hopelessness. I see other Muslims finding peace and comfort, but for me, it’s only chaos and restlessness. It’s exhausting, especially since I’m a revert. My past experiences with another faith were similar, and I didn’t expect a quick fix. But emotionally and spiritually, things just keep going downhill. Sometimes I feel like shaytan has more sway over me than Allah, astaghfirullah. I know Allah’s presence is always there, but I don’t feel guided or at ease-I feel like He’s ostracizing me too. The trauma from my old religion makes me impatient, and all of this is pulling me away from Islam. Has anyone else gone through this, whether as a revert or born Muslim?