Choosing Faith Over Big Paychecks: Is the Daily Struggle Worth It?

I wanted to share something that's been on my mind lately, since it feels like not many people talk about this stuff openly. Ever since I was young, I've been passionate about making short films-there's something about blending visuals and sound that just clicks for me creatively. But here's the tough part: the audio side often involves elements that, after studying and reflecting, I believe I need to avoid for my faith. I'm not here to argue about rulings; I've made my niyyah and I'm sticking to it, insha'Allah. What's really challenging is dealing with it day in and day out. Whenever I open my editing software, there's this constant tug. When I find the perfect sound for a scene, that tug gets stronger. It's like a silent battle with my nafs that I never thought would be so relentless. Online, I see people either saying 'just quit, it's haram' or 'you're being too hard on yourself,' but neither really gets what it's like to fight this daily while still trying to make something meaningful. Lately, I've been experimenting with alternatives like nasheeds, ambient sounds, and even silence-there's a real art to it, and I'm learning a lot. But honestly, sometimes it doesn't feel as impactful, and I'm wondering if that's just because I need more practice or if it's a limitation I'll have to accept. To give you some background, I've passed up multiple high-paying jobs in tech marketing because they'd have required me to create content that goes against my beliefs. I did it for the sake of Allah, and alhamdulillah, I don't regret it. But it's not easy-it has cost me opportunities, and the daily grind hasn't magically gotten simpler just because I made those big decisions. So, to any other Muslim creatives out there, whether you're in filmmaking, editing, or any visual media: does this struggle ever ease up? How do you keep your niyyah strong when your craft keeps tempting you back? Have you found a way to make peace with the limits, or are you still fighting the good fight? JazakAllahu khairan for any advice or support.