Assalamu alaikum - Feeling Lost About My Path, Need Advice

Assalamu alaikum. I’m Charlie, 24M. I finished high school in 2020 during the height of Covid. I was always strong academically - I think my SAT was around 1460 or 1490 - and I was top of my class out of about 900 students for two years. At the end of my freshman year my father passed unexpectedly and that really upended everything. My attendance and motivation dropped as I became depressed, though I still graduated ranked 19th overall. In high school, the only thing that really held my interest was music. I loved percussion - concert, marching, and jazz band. I was decent at math but never passionate about it. I considered majoring in music many times, but my main instrument, the vibraphone, is niche and the career prospects felt uncertain. I wasn’t drawn to teaching, just performing. After graduation I impulsively enrolled at a university a couple hours from home with a good music program. I declared a music minor and left my major undeclared. Being away during Covid made school really hard. There were no social activities and even though I joined bands I didn’t connect with people. I dropped out before the end of my second semester and returned home in 2021. Since then I’ve tried many therapies and treatments for depression, including medications and even ECT with ketamine, which affected my memory. I’ve taken some community college classes, but I still don’t have a degree or a clear direction. I did find work as a veterinary assistant and have been doing that about a year. It’s okay and I plan to keep it for now, but I don’t feel passionate about it. I’m embarrassed to be 24 and feel like I haven’t achieved anything. There’s shame and the sense of wasted potential. My mental health is better overall but I still feel drained most days, which makes it hard to take steps forward. I’m somewhat interested in herpetology because I like the animals, but the schooling needed seems overwhelming, especially while holding a job. I’ve thought about counseling or trying music again (I haven’t played in about two years), but nothing feels quite right. My family has suggested learning a trade so I don’t need a degree, but part of me wants a degree to be proud of. I don’t really know what I hope to get from sharing this, I just feel lost and without direction. JazakAllahu khair for anyone who reads this and especially for anyone who replies. Please feel free to ask me anything.