Assalamu alaikum, everyone. I'm going through a tough time and need some guidance.
I'm struggling mentally and have a serious question: Is it wrong to ask Allah to take my life? I'm living in a nightmare right now. I made a huge mistake by gambling and got myself into over $45,000 of debt. I don't want to end my life myself-I want to live a good, successful life, get married, and have children. I live in the West, where there are many opportunities, but right now I feel stuck and it's eating me up inside every day. My credit score has dropped from over 800 to something embarrassingly low, so I can't see myself buying a house or car anytime soon. I feel like I've ruined my life and I just have to accept it. Is it haram to ask Allah to end my suffering by taking my life because I can't handle this anymore?