A Journey Back to Faith: Seeking Guidance After a Period of Doubt
As-Salāmu ʿAlaykum, everyone. I hope you're all in the best of health and imaan. I'm reaching out for some advice and maybe to see if others have walked a similar path. I was raised in a Muslim family and practiced my deen diligently until around the age of 17. That's when I started pondering deeply about the creation of the universe and found myself questioning why I believed it was Allah's work. At the time, I couldn't find answers that truly satisfied my heart and mind. Since then, it's been about three to four years of seeking knowledge, trying to find my way back to Islam, but somehow I haven't been able to fully reconnect. I've watched numerous lectures from scholars and imams, hoping to reignite that firm belief, but nothing has fully taken hold. Despite this, I've kept up with some practices-fasting every Ramadan, avoiding haram things like alcohol and drugs, and maintaining haya in my interactions with the opposite gender. I admit my salah has become less consistent over the years as these doubts linger. Honestly, I worry I might be stuck in this uncertain state and never fully return to strong faith. Has anyone else faced something like this? Any advice or personal experiences you could share would mean a lot. JazakAllah khair for listening.