Dhirri koo umrii 23 tiyyatti na hifte

Assalamu alaikum hundumaaf, ani waan akka kanaa duraan wal hin qoodne, garuu dhugumatti gorsaa fi du'aa keessan barbaada. Ani bara darbee heerume, umrii koo xiqqaadha-lamaanuu umrii 23. Namicha kana hanga umrii koo 16 tti beeka, yeroo baay'ee garaa garuu natti dhufaa deema, miira isaa irratti na dogoggorsaa ture. Ani waan ijoollee taanee waliin gale. Waggootaaf, inni waan isaa godhatee, shamarran biroo wajjin haasa'ee fi hariiroo dheeraa qaba ture, ani immoo fagootii ilaala ture. Inni yoomuu na hin filannee kan na dhukkubsate, garuu ani hin kadhanne. Ani mataa koo ol kaasee, deemeeti, sunuma ture. Waggoota lama booda, yeroo ani bakka irra gaarii keessa jiru, inni deebi'ee jireenya koo keessa dhufe. Ani mana koo, hiriyoota baay'ee, fi magaalaa abjuu koo keessa jiraachaa ture-dhugumatti gammada ture. Jireenyi koo hundi erga wal dubbannee kaasee fooyye ture, anis sababa inni ammas maaliif fedhii qabu hubadhe. Waggoota tokkoof isa dhiise, waan yaada isaa sodaadhee. Erga waggaa tokko isa yaale booda, xumuratti carraa isaaf kenne. Inni fedhii isaa hiikaa fi akka jijjiirame waadaa naaf galee, ani waan dhugumaan isaaf yaaduuf, shakkii kenneef. Yoo wanni inni dubbate dhugaa tae, akka abjuu dhufaa ture. Erga ji'a muraasa haasa'ee booda, ani waan cimaa ta'e murteessee, magaalaa sanii gara magaalaa abbaa kootti deebi'ee, wal qopheessuu qabee fi gaa'ila godhuuf. Sunis akka ta'e. Ani waan hundaa-dhugumatti waan hundaa fi namni hundi-dhiisee deebi'e. Ji'a tokko keessatti, wal qopheessine, hundinuu akka abjuu natti dhaga'ame. Wal qopheessuu booda, jaalalleen isaa durii natti bilbilte. Isheen akka isaan yeroo dhihoo wal quunnamanii fi akka inni sobaa fi seerri kan dhabe na akeekkachiifte, waan akkanaa. Ani akka isheen waciti balleessuu yaalaa ta'uu beeka, garuu yaada mataa koo keessatti sanyii tokko dhaabde, akka inni guddaa ta'u hin beekne. Ani sodaa qabaachuu fi dhugaa dubbattee jiraa debii argachuu barbaade. Xumuratti, yeroo inni dhoksuu hin dandeenye, inni dhugaa duratti dhufe. Inni akka yeroo wal dubbachaa turre-ani oo hin socho'in dura-shamarran biroo wajjin haasa'aa, wal arguu, fi kkf ture natti hime. Waan ani jechuu barbaaduu yaada. Ofii koo iddoo koo keessa kaa'i: Ani amma qofaa wal qopheesse, gammada, ammoo waan kana arge. Garuu namni ani dhugumaan jaalladhe akka waan kun dhumee fi akka inni jijjiirame yeroo hundumaa na mirkaneessa ture, kanaaf ammas carraa isaaf kenne. Ani hin qabu ture, sababni isaa waan inni ammas waan akkasii hojjeteef utuu hin ta'in, shakkiin sammuu koo keessa jiraachuun jireenya koo balleessee. Guyyaa sanii kaasee, ani guyyaa tokko illee wanni inni namoota biroo wajjin hojjeteu hayyuu yaadaa ala hin turre. Alaa ba'uu hin dandeenye, sodaa namni tokko isa ykn natti beekuu. Bilbilaan yoo rukute, onnee koo diigama ture, waan ammas itti gaddamuu sodaadhee. Garuu, guyyaa wal qopheessinee kaasee, inni waan isa fakkaatu ammas hin hojjatin. Inni dhugaa fi banaa ture, anis dhugumatti akka inni dogoggora kanas hin irra deebin beeka. Yeroon waan kun jireenya koo balleesse jechu, dhugumatti balleessee jechuu dha. Guyyaa cidha keenyaa, kun qofa yaaduu danda'aa ture. Ani faayaa fi rifeensa koo qopheessuu nan qaana'a ture, waan fedhii namni isa beeku na ilaalee, 'Ishee tuni akkamitti miidhagde! isheen gammada ta'uu isii hin beektu, ani isa wajjin waan hojjedhe odoo hin beekin?' jedhee yaadu. Ani maatii isaa ijaan ilaaluu hin dandeenye, isaan waan an hin beekne beekuu sodaadhee. Hiriyoota koo wajjin haasa'uu dhiise, waan isaan hundi jireenya cidhaa akkamiin ta'e beekuu barbaada ture, anis deebii hin qabu ture. Ani kan beeku waan yaada baay'ee fi shakkii irraa harkifamaa jiraachuu koo qofa. Ani ajjeesaa jiraachuu koo, inni erga wal qopheessinee booda waan dogoggoraa hin hojjatin. Ani 'utuu inni hojjatee, ani ofitti komachuu dhabna' jedhee waan yaaduuf, garuu ani waan tokkoof daguu hin dandeenye. Baay'ee na dhukkubsata-amma waan kana barreessuu koo, baay'ee na dhukkubsata. Ji'a muraasa akkanaa dhaga'ee booda, yeroo hunda dheekkamsaan banuu jalqabe. Yeroo hundumaa aariin na qaba, kophaa ta'uu barbaada ture, iyyaa fi waciti. Ani aarii qaba ture, garuu dhugumatti, yaada koo irraa dhukkuba guddaa qaba ture. Lolli cime, inni waan danda'u hunda hojjatee, garuu wanni inni dubbatu ykn hojjetu tokkollee hin fayyifne. Ani baay'ee dhukkubsataa ture. Xumuratti, inni abdii kutatee na hifte. Yeroo inni hifu, ani rifadhe-akka inni na dhiisu hin amanne. Amma ani akka inni akka ija ittiin hin dadhabne argu, garuu natti, waan hunda irraa, ani baay'ee isa jaalladha ture. Ani dhugumatti baay'ee jaalladhe ture, waan ani baay'ee dhukkubsadheef. Inni na dhiise, na hifte, ergasii waan tokko illee na wajjin hin dubbatin. Ji'a lama ture, inni jireenya isaa jiraataa, gadhee ba'aa, namoota haaraa wajjin wal ga'aa-waan hundaa akka jireenyi keenya walii hin jirre godhaa. Ani ji'a dura isa kadhaa, akka inni natti dubbatu, akka inni deebi'u, garuu inni murteessee ture, yoomuu of duuba hin ilaalin. Waan odeeffannoo dheeraa kanaaf natti dhiifama, yoo hanga asitti dubbistee, galatoomi. Ani waan kanaaf yeroo dheeraa qabuu nan gaabbe, garuu ofitti rahmata kennuu yaalaa, waan akka ani akkamiin dhukkubsadhe hin bulchin. Ani ofii koo irratti dadhabbii irraa hin dhaaban hojjadhaa, akka inni yoo deebi'ee dhufe, niitii gaarii ta'u abdathee. Garuu inni yoomuu hin deebi'in. Inni ji'a lama kana namoota biroo wajjin wal argatee, nama kamuu dhufuun bakka buusa ture. Garuu ani ammallee isa hin daganne. Ani ammallee jireenya cidhaa keenya irratti hojjechuu nan fedha, waan inni yoomuu hin jirreef faayidaa hin qabu. Ani maal godhuu akka hin beekne. Ani waan gaafadhu yoo namni tokko gorsa qabaatee, of eeggannoodhaan na waliin haasa'aa. Fi yoo du'aa naaf gochuu dandeessee, ani yoo waan Rabbi AKB nuuf deebisee walitti araarsuuf kadhatte, baay'ee dinqisiifadha. JazakAllah khair.