Neman Jagora a kan Hanyar Musulunci

As-salamu alaykum. Don ka fahimta, ni saurayi Ba’amurke ne wanda ya tashi a wani yanki mai tsananin Kiristanci na evangelic. Lokacin ina ƙarami, na zauna a cikin al’umma mai bambancin addini da Musulmai da yawa, amma wannan ya daɗe. A koyaushe na yi imani da Allah kuma ina ƙaunarsa, ina ƙoƙarin bin waɗanda nake jin suna raba wannan ƙaunar. Wannan binciken ya kai ni ta hanyoyin ruhaniya da yawa, kuma ban yi nadamar kome ba. A kwanakin baya, na kusan shawo kaina in shiga coci na Orthodox, amma wani abu ya hana ni-ban iya jin cewa wannan shi ne abin da Yesu (amincin Allah ya tabbata a gare shi) ya roƙe mu ba. Sai a cikin makonni biyu da suka wuce, fiye da son sani kawai, na ji jan hankali mai zurfi don nutsar da kaina cikin salon rayuwar Musulunci. Ba kamar dā ba, ba na jin kamar buƙatar shiga wata ƙungiya ba ce, sai dai kamar Allah yana so in yi nazarin Alƙur’ani da rayuwar Annabi Muhammad (amincin Allah ya tabbata a gare shi). Matsalar ita ce, Musulunci ba a fahimta sosai a inda nake zaune. Akwai masallaci a nan, amma ba ya aiki saboda ƙarancin masu zuwa da barazanar bam a Ramadanan da ya gabata. Me ya kamata in yi? Ina da Alƙur’ani na waƙa da Ingilishi, amma me kuma zai iya taimaka mini? Ta yaya zan sami jagorar ruhaniya daidai ba tare da al’umma ba? A wane lokaci ne ya kamata in yi tunani game da musulunta? Tuni yana cikin zuciyata, amma ban sani ba ko kawai ina jin daɗin sabon abu ne. Ina damuwa cewa idan na yi shahada, zan zama Musulmi mara kyau tunda ni mai yawan zunubi ne.