Haaɓde e moƴƴere, miɗo sokli duwaa maa

Assalamu alaikum. Mi winndata ɗum sabu mi tampii no feewi, e goonga, miɗo sokli duwaa maa. Miɗo wondi e PCOS, nde addanii ko bonɗum e waylooji hakkille bonɗi. Miɗo kadi haɓaade e caɗeele cellal goɗɗe, ɗum woni ko boni haa ñaamde ina metta no feewi, mi waawa kadi yaltude suudu am. Miɗo anndi ko adii fof ko neɗɗo miijata ko wiyde muñee e juulde. Koolaa mi tigi-rigi mi waɗata ɗum. Mi juulata farillaaji e sunna, mi juulata tahajjud, mi waɗata istighfaar, mi janngata al-Qur’aan ñalawma kala, mi tawoora hono Dawud, mi jokki duwaaji am. Mi waɗii kadi ruqya. Miɗo tiiɗnaa no feewi faa mi waɗa diina am, ammaa mi tampii tan. Mi fuɗɗii kadi ustude ibaadaaji am, mi waɗata ko waajib tan, sabu mi waawaa jokkude fof. Ñalawma kala mi ummotoo ko e mettere teddunde e nder ɓernde am. So mi juulii sala, miɗo heɓa kulol mawngol e miɗo nanngaa e nder tampi. So mi ummii caka jamma, mi waawaa ɗaanndude waktuuji, sabu hakkille am fuɗɗata dogde e miijo warde hoore am. Mi waɗaani ɗum, ammaa miɗo huli no feewi wonnde ñalawma gooto hakkille am maa jalne, mi majja laawol, sabu sahaaji goɗɗi mi majjata. Miɗo jaɓa wonde miɗo suka mi waɗii heewde leɗɗe ɗe mbaawa warde, ammaa fadge ala, mi maayaani. Alhamdulillaa ala e kala huunde, ammaa mi tampii tan. Gila mi jibinaa, miɗo wondi e tooñanngeeji e trauma jokkuɗi. Miɗo yetti Allah, ammaa ɓanndu e ɓernde am timmii. Miɗo anndi heewɓe maa cewtu ɗum yeeso, njokku nguurndam mum en. Ammaa miɗo sokli, e hade am waɗde ɗum timmi e hoore am, miɗo yiɗi etude laawol gootol cakkitiiɗol ngam haɓde. Miɗo ñaagii, so a yi’ii ɗum, waɗan am duwaa laaɓɗo. Miɗo yetti kala neɗɗo so tawii hokkii sahaa janngude ɗum walla innde am e duwaaji mum. Yo Allah, ɓurɗo toowde, weeɓnu caɗeele maa fof e oo yonki, o dokku ma darnde ɓurnde toowde e Aljanna. Aamiin.