When Did Allah Ease Your Hardships? Share Your Journey

Assalamu alaikum, everyone. I’m curious about your personal stories: how long did it take for your pain to fade after you turned to Allah for comfort? Did you ever get the relief you asked for, or are you still waiting? No religious advice, please-just real talk about what you lived through. I’m almost 30 and feel like I’ve struggled forever. Since childhood, it’s like I’ve been on the sidelines watching others thrive while I face constant inner turmoil. I’ve made heartfelt duas at special times-during Ramadan’s last ten nights, on Arafah, in the deep night, after giving charity-for over ten years, but nothing has shifted. Honestly, if I’d asked a caring person, they might have helped by now. Even people around me showed more kindness. I’ve pushed myself hard since my early teens. Yet, I still lack anything truly meaningful in this dunya (and please don’t say “but you have faith” because I mean a worldly purpose). My struggles include: - Painful treatment from my parents, from early childhood into my twenties. - Harsh bullying in school. - An eating disorder as a young teen, trying to feel accepted. - Unwanted advances from a relative until I was 25. - Deep depression and anxiety, where medicines cause bad reactions, so I avoid them. - Social anxiety that I mostly manage. - Never finding love-no man has ever chosen me. I see others easily connect, but I only encounter disrespectful situations. I’ve never even held a conversation with a potential spouse, and now I feel too old for a first relationship to feel respectable. Given my past, this hits especially hard. - Constant loneliness, with no one really there. I wonder: is this my lifelong test? I’ll be honest-I feel so much resentment that even my daily salah feels heavy. I’ve prayed since I was 8. Every time I cry out for a big change, it seems like someone else gets my answer. It’s starting to feel discouraging, even a bit humiliating. I’ve even begged Allah to soften my heart or numb the ache, even if the problems stay, but that relief hasn’t come either. After so many duas and letdowns, I’m exhausted. So, I’m asking you: from your life, how long did your hardship stretch? Share your story and how things turned out-good or still tough. I appreciate you reading and opening up.