Struggling with my mother insulting me and my deen after I reverted
Assalamu alaikum everyone, I’m writing this with a really sore heart after a big fight with my mom today. I took my shahada like four months ago. My family’s Christian, I grew up Christian, and lately my mom realized I changed my religion and since then things have been tense. At first we had some honest talks about why I left Christianity and why Islam feels right for me. She seemed understanding, so I thought even if she doesn’t agree, she’d at least respect my choice. But it went the other way. She’s been pushing Christianity on me even harder, trying to get me to stop praying, and saying stuff like “How can you leave the God who made you and saved you?” She also doesn’t believe we worship the same God, so she keeps telling me I’m worshipping wrong things. Today it got out of hand. She started insulting Muslims and how we pray, and said all Muslims are cheaters and that I’m joining a cheater community. I usually pray in one certain room in our house, it’s like my little spiritual spot. She was in there when I needed to pray, so I asked if she could step out a few minutes. She said, “Your people pray on the roadside too, so why do you need a room?” That stung a lot. I’m honestly exhausted from all the arguing. She’s my only family and I just want her to accept me and my decision, even if she doesn’t agree with it. But I’m starting to feel like she might not be able to. Sometimes I even think, why did Allah guide me to this path when staying Christian would’ve been so much easier? I keep making dua for Him to soften her heart and help her understand, but nothing seems to change. I don’t want to fight with her or convince her to become Muslim. I just want to practice my deen in peace. How do I handle this situation? Any advice would mean a lot. JazakAllah khair.