Seeking Islamic Lectures and Books to Ease My Heartache as a Lonely Caregiver for My Elderly Parents

Assalamu alaikum, dear brothers and sisters in Islam. I’m reaching out because my heart is heavy, and I’m searching for some comfort through our faith. I’m the sole caregiver for my elderly parents. My mother is battling Alzheimer’s, and my father is physically disabled. They’re in their late seventies, and I came into their lives later in their journey. I’m a young mother with three little ones, and I have no siblings or close family around to lean on. Sometimes the loneliness is overwhelming, and I feel a profound grief watching them slip away and feeling so alone in this world. I’m blessed with a caring husband and wonderful friends, but there’s a void I can’t seem to fill. I see other women my age enjoying outings with their parents, performing umrah together, traveling, and sharing joyful moments, and I ache for that. My mother was my anchor, my everything, before Alzheimer’s stole her from me so swiftly. I often feel broken and defeated, even though I know this life is a test and we all return to Allah. My heart feels unbearably heavy, and I find myself making du'a for a miracle, wishing my parents could have more healthy years so my children could grow up surrounded by their love. I’m desperately seeking Islamic resources-lectures, books, anything that can soothe my grieving soul and remind me of Allah’s mercy. Please share any recommendations that might bring me relief. And I humbly ask you to keep my parents in your du'as. May Allah reward you all. Jazakum Allahu khairan.